I was just reading my older posts that I'd labelled with the word 'thoughts' and it struck me just how great life was for me exactly a year ago and how so much has changed between then and now.
Some change was for the better... The biggest and most obvious change was that my mom was still alive. (I know, so emo!) But sometimes things like this really hit me. How just at this same time last year, I was looking forward to meeting up with my family in Perth for the Easter break and this year, the most important person in my family is gone - no meet-up with her forever. *sniffle*
I can't wait for the 1 year anniversary of my mom's death to come. Maybe things will get better after that...
Thursday 26 March 2009
Tuesday 24 March 2009
My Perfect Morning
My perfect morning would involve me sitting on my bed, wearing my most comfy/old/worn out house clothes, and flipping through the latest issue of Shop Till You Drop, with a mug of warm barley tea in one hand and the sun shining in through my window. Oh and the sky must be clear and blue. And I'll have to have my favourite music playlist playing in the background. *sigh*
One Sunday... (it has to be a Sunday coz the name adds to the perfectness of it all - warm, bright, laid-back :p)
Monday 23 March 2009
Lemme Think...
Anyway, yeah. I dunno what else to say now.
Maybe it's because I'm having issues with myself - whether or not to force myself to come up with a post, what to write about, whether or not people will be entertained... does a lack of enthusiasm translate onto plasma???
Maybe I should talk about a new song?
No.
I'll just show everyone a picture of the wet look tights I bought. (They look like skinny leather pants from afar. Teehee!)
Monday 16 March 2009
Love Is In The Air?? Really???
So is love the warm fuzzy feeling we get in the pit of our tummy when we think about that special someone? Is it real? Or does it only exist in our minds - a figment of our imagination. That desperate need that is innately present in every one of us to feel needed and wanted - is this feeling born of that desperation?
I for one believe that love really does exist. If it's possible for a mother to love her child in such a simple and unconditional manner, surely then it is possible for a man to love a woman and vice versa?
When I was younger, growing up on a diet of Disney fairytales and a hodgepodge of other 'happily ever after' movies and tv shows, I used to think that Love only happened once in your life - that you'll meet that one perfect guy and fall madly and deeply in love with him and he with you (coz it has to be a mutual thing) and then you'll date for a few years (and still stay madly in love with each other) and then eventually get married, have kids and grow old together and live Happily Ever After.
Yeah right.
I still am a devout believer in the fact that it is possible to really fall in love - to truly experience love and all the bittersweet times that come with it. But I've now come to realise that it is possible to fall in and out of love. Of course, it doesn't happen overnight. But it happens. And when it does, you just need to pick yourself up and know that you can fall in love again. Yup, I now also realise that (good news!!) you can fall in love MORE THAN ONCE in your lifetime :) That there's more than one guy who'll be perfect for you. That there isn't such a thing as 'the perfect guy'. But that you can find one that's pretty darn close to perfect (in your eyes!).
Lately I've been hearing so many stories about couples breaking up. Couples that have been going out for ages and that you'd think were on their way to marriage. And it's really made me rethink my fundamental thoughts about marriage and relationships. And I still haven't properly answered all these questions that have come up - Is marriage more of an agreement than a declaration of love? Are we better off marrying someone whom we know we can depend on but only count as a friend rather than a man that we could be totally in love with but would make the crappiest husband in the world? Does every marriage eventually become a mundane routine that people stick to just because they're too comfortable to do anything else? Is it normal to date someone for 5 years and then break-up and then date another person for just 3 months and get married?
I know, I'm still only 21. ONLY 21 :p But I can't help being affected by the things that surround me. And even though I'm in no hurry to settle down, I still can't help trying to figure out where my life's path is headed to and where it'll lead me.
Only a year ago, it hadn't occured to me how uncertain life is; how many times we come to crossroads; how many times our path diverges; the endless decisions that we have to make, not knowing whether or not we've made the right ones. And sometimes, never finding out if we did. Now I'm slowly learning just how many things in life DON'T have one clear, correct answer/choice/path.
I remember playing this silly little boardgame with my sister and cousins years ago called 'The Game of Life'. And thinking back to it makes me want to laugh at the irony of the situation - now I know that Life IS a Game and it's one that we have no choice but to play.
The good thing is, I've always been kinda competitive in nature (not TOTALLY crazy pyscho competitive, but more competitive than your average joe la). In this game, I might not come out tops, but I sure will make sure I play my best (when I'm not feeling lazy that is :p).
Suddenly all these analogies about life and rollercoasters and sin x curves and boxes of chocolates are starting to make sense... :p
I for one believe that love really does exist. If it's possible for a mother to love her child in such a simple and unconditional manner, surely then it is possible for a man to love a woman and vice versa?
When I was younger, growing up on a diet of Disney fairytales and a hodgepodge of other 'happily ever after' movies and tv shows, I used to think that Love only happened once in your life - that you'll meet that one perfect guy and fall madly and deeply in love with him and he with you (coz it has to be a mutual thing) and then you'll date for a few years (and still stay madly in love with each other) and then eventually get married, have kids and grow old together and live Happily Ever After.
Yeah right.
I still am a devout believer in the fact that it is possible to really fall in love - to truly experience love and all the bittersweet times that come with it. But I've now come to realise that it is possible to fall in and out of love. Of course, it doesn't happen overnight. But it happens. And when it does, you just need to pick yourself up and know that you can fall in love again. Yup, I now also realise that (good news!!) you can fall in love MORE THAN ONCE in your lifetime :) That there's more than one guy who'll be perfect for you. That there isn't such a thing as 'the perfect guy'. But that you can find one that's pretty darn close to perfect (in your eyes!).
Lately I've been hearing so many stories about couples breaking up. Couples that have been going out for ages and that you'd think were on their way to marriage. And it's really made me rethink my fundamental thoughts about marriage and relationships. And I still haven't properly answered all these questions that have come up - Is marriage more of an agreement than a declaration of love? Are we better off marrying someone whom we know we can depend on but only count as a friend rather than a man that we could be totally in love with but would make the crappiest husband in the world? Does every marriage eventually become a mundane routine that people stick to just because they're too comfortable to do anything else? Is it normal to date someone for 5 years and then break-up and then date another person for just 3 months and get married?
I know, I'm still only 21. ONLY 21 :p But I can't help being affected by the things that surround me. And even though I'm in no hurry to settle down, I still can't help trying to figure out where my life's path is headed to and where it'll lead me.
Only a year ago, it hadn't occured to me how uncertain life is; how many times we come to crossroads; how many times our path diverges; the endless decisions that we have to make, not knowing whether or not we've made the right ones. And sometimes, never finding out if we did. Now I'm slowly learning just how many things in life DON'T have one clear, correct answer/choice/path.
I remember playing this silly little boardgame with my sister and cousins years ago called 'The Game of Life'. And thinking back to it makes me want to laugh at the irony of the situation - now I know that Life IS a Game and it's one that we have no choice but to play.
The good thing is, I've always been kinda competitive in nature (not TOTALLY crazy pyscho competitive, but more competitive than your average joe la). In this game, I might not come out tops, but I sure will make sure I play my best (when I'm not feeling lazy that is :p).
Suddenly all these analogies about life and rollercoasters and sin x curves and boxes of chocolates are starting to make sense... :p
Tuesday 10 March 2009
Top 5 Break-Up Songs (in my opinion laa)
5. Love Song - Sara Bareilles
4. White Horse - Taylor Swift
3. Take A Bow - Rihanna
2. Love Is A Losing Game - Amy Winehouse
1. Warwick Avenue - Duffy
"This would be a great break-up song" is what I think everytime I listen to/sing along to one of these songs :p
Had to make a list of them just so I won't keep obsessing over them. They're great songs and I love listening to them (just for fun - nice tunes, very heartfelt/angsty lyrics). At least now I won't have this nagging thought in my head to list them down before I forget!
4. White Horse - Taylor Swift
3. Take A Bow - Rihanna
2. Love Is A Losing Game - Amy Winehouse
1. Warwick Avenue - Duffy
"This would be a great break-up song" is what I think everytime I listen to/sing along to one of these songs :p
Had to make a list of them just so I won't keep obsessing over them. They're great songs and I love listening to them (just for fun - nice tunes, very heartfelt/angsty lyrics). At least now I won't have this nagging thought in my head to list them down before I forget!
Sunday 8 March 2009
I ♥ my Body Shop Exfoliating Mitts :)
I just bought these mitts 2 weeks ago and have been religiously using them about 4 times a week. Soo good!!! It makes me feel good about myself :p And they look nice too!
And
I also noticed that my blood circulation's improved... Though I'm not sure if exfoliating mitts are meant to do that. Added bonus :)
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