I'm doing a much better job with this blog than with my journal. I haven't written in it for 2 weeks and 2 days now. I will try to recap briefly the going ons of the past 2 weeks in my journal tonight. I wish my journal had an auto-write button! :p But it doesn't. So I have to write everything in myself, using my own hand. Meh.

Going to pain my hand now. Yes, I said 'pain my hand'. In my speak, it means write till my arm muscles learn and memorise the true meaning of PAIN. Lol :p And also 'ouch' in advance... :s

Neither Black Nor White

I'm always bewildered when something happens and I expect the answer to be a clear cut 'yes' or 'no' but ends up being something in between. I'm beginning to realise that as I'm exposed to more new (new to me) situations that nothing is ever black or white but is instead always a shade of gray. You can like someone and not like them at the same time; you can feel hungry and full at the same time; you can want something but not want it at the same time. The list really is endless. Inexhaustive.

And I guess that I'm also learning that this is what we should appreciate about life. Because nothing in real life has a straight answer. Though I'm sure the author of Q&A or Slumdog Millionaire as it is now known would like to differ - according to him, life CAN be a multiple choice question. And learning this is the hardest part when you've led a sheltered and fairly problem-free life the whole time before this.

Oh well. As Alanis Morissette once sang - "You live, you learn".

I ♥ Love: Why Is Valentine's Day So BIG???

Love - it's a pretty cool thing. Any kind of love, between anyone. It makes you feel all warm and fuzzy inside. It makes you feel wanted and appreciated and safe. It puts a smile on your face and a bounce in your every step.

But the biggest question is how do we express this love? Do you show it in an extravagant and flashy way by giving them the best gifts you can afford? By publicly declaring your love? By gushing continously about 'the love of your life' to everyone and anyone willing to listen? Or do you express your love quietly? And in line with this 'biggest question' of how to express your love, what do you do on Valentine's Day?Do you choose to go all out - flowers, chocolates, a romantic candlelight dinner? Or do you simply acknowledge Valentine's Day as a huge marketing gimmick? Afterall, shouldn't you be celebrating your love everyday? What makes the 14th of February so special?

Yeah, I know the story about St. Valentine. But why this one day? Admittedly, it is nice to do something special once in a while. It feels nice to break the monotony of your usual routine and step outside your little, cosy microcosm. But this can be done on just any day. You can make any day your little personal Valentine's Day. Why must we conform to the expectations of society and celebrate on this one day - February 14?

So I'm still wondering. I like giving people surprises and receiving flowers and everything a normal girl likes but does everything have to be planned to coincide with this ONE day?

:p

Your Call

Ok, before anyone says anything, I want to say that: Yes, I KNOW that this song is kinda emo.
But I like it anyway. The lyrics are sooo romantic. Mmmmm :)

I'm pretty sure lots of people have heard it la (since it's got 9 million plus hits on YouTube) but for those of you who haven't heard it, here it is (not the original music video):

The Day Nadal Won and Federer Cried

:(
I couldn't decide who to support from the start. Nadal had fought so hard for his place in the finals but surely Federer deserved to reclaim the title that he'd last won in 2007?

Then came the match....

I watched the first set and half of the second set before heading out for dinner where I was constantly updated about the progress of the match by sms. We finished eating and rushed down to Chilli's in time to see Nadal play the winning point and roll on the ground in elation.

Yeah, what a match (I missed 3/5 of it).

And then I got home in time to see Nadal giving his little speech on the makeshift podium and Federer all teary-eyed in the background :(

I really don't know whether to feel happy for Nadal or sad for Federer... Maybe both?

All the boys and all the girls are begging to...

Ok, so I don't usually post many things from my personal life because I like my privacy. But I have this song that's stuck in my head and it's sooo annoying, but (scarily) I like it! :s

Yeah, so how did I find out about it?
Read the wall-to-wall I had with my friend, bel bel, on facebook:

bel:
herro! did you know that the latest britney single is called "if you seek amy". try saying that very quickly and in a sort of upbeat way. HAHA.

me:
omg, i'm listening to the song now... so squeaky!! blergh... you listen to britney spears?

me:
zomg bel!
i think i'm starting to like that song... it's catchy in a weird way... :s
am i going crazy??

love me hate me say whatcha want about me...
all the girls and all the boys are begging to if you seek amy

bel:
are you horny?

me:
o_O
is that what it means?
that song is soo stuck in my head... :s
decipher it for me you lit freak!
pweasseee...

bel:
just say "if you seek amy" over and over again. omg i can't believe you still haven't heard it in the song!!
>.< hint: eff....you.....c.....k....mee...

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SO YEAH... Now I know what it means :s
But hey, I must give it credit for being a catchy song. and the little disguised "if you seek amy" is quite clever... :p Though at first I thought that Amy was a real person and the boys and girls were really seeking her, albeit with wrong grammar.

Hehe.
That's me! My processor is slowwww.... :p

Not a great song for kids to be listening to. I wonder if they'll be playing it on Malaysian radio anytime soon... if ever. For the sake of the innocence of our Malaysian kiddies, I hope they don't! I don't think I'd be very comfortable with the idea of my 10 year old cousin singing "all the boys and all the girls are begging to if you seek amy".

o_O

For those who want to listen to the whole song, the YouTube link is here.

And for those of you who're as slow (or as naive :p) as me and still haven't figured it out, I will make it plain and simple for you...

No, I changed my mind. Just read the little dialogue above over and over again until you get it. Hah!

Go Out, Have Fun, Be Happy!

So the past three or four days have been pretty boring and uneventful for me. (Ow! I stubbed my toe on the computer table :s) But back to what I was saying... It's been boring. I hardly went out except for the odd driver job (UNPAID job) to pick my sister up from tuition/school or to buy food. The rest of my time was spent by aimlessly surfing the web (yeah, like people do things like that anymore... I was REALLY bored), angrily banging out a tune or two (or THREE) on the piano, continuously flipping between channels on Astro, perfecting my ability to apply eyeliner (again, I was THAT bored) and between them all, kind of like an interval, pacing restlessly up and down the living room. Yeah, LOVE my life... Meh.

So while I was doing all this, I was in a constant state of frustration and restlessness (though I controlled it very well) and the only unfortunate recipients of my pent up frustration and restlessness were my dad and sister. Coz I figured, I'm family - they can't be annoyed at me forever... :p

And then today, I WENT OUT! Hehe. Yeah, I went out with 2 friends just for a little catch-up session at One Utama. And then I walked about on my own, walked around the supermarket, bought the things I need to make sushi and basically just had a nice little outing. Yayy!!

Seriously, I thought that I was going to bite my fingers off out of pure and utter boredom. BOREDOM I tell you. But thanks to today, I am just a little more sane again :p

:p :p :p

Soooo, the moral of my little (and I hope not too long-winded) story issss... When you feel like you're about to explode due to a looong period of inactivity, make an effort to GO OUT. Don't bite your fingers off...

Hehe, my community message for the week. Kinda like what they have on Hitz.FM.

Except wayy cooler, no? :)